Still on my mind.

I've been feeling really good lately. I have my down days but I've been doing well emotionally. I still think about Ej everyday. I don't have bad dreams about him, but he pops up sometimes. Him and my unborn child. I still miss him everyday. I always think about him before I go to sleep. I read our messages sometimes, and I catch myself wishing he was here to see how well I've been doing. When the baby kicks I wish he was here. I think about us together and other times I get angry about how he's gone. I know he's doing well though. Sometimes I can see myself moving on other times I just don't ever want to love anyone. G really wants to be with me. I just can't. Not now anyway. I'm healing which is always good. I was really dissapointed in myself today but, I won't do it again. I'll get over this though. I pray for peace of mind, and I hope for more good days than bad.