So I'm 6 months into my pregnancy. I'm so excited about the baby! I've started buying some stuff too. She's a frequent mover. She moves all the time. Alena is doing well she's back in daycare and she is doing her toddler thing which includes whining, causing messes, temper tantrums, and driving mommy crazy. Kisses and hugs are involved though and so are new cute words. We're working on potty training so she can be potty trained by the time her sister comes. The pregnancy is not too bad. I feel great besides being tired a lot. I'm high risk though. I have complete placenta Previa. Which really worries me. If my placenta doesn't move by the time I need to deliver I'll need a c section. I'm also at risk for bleeding too much because of it. I'm supposed to be taking iron pills. I'm at risk for anemia so if I do bleed too much if my iron and blood count isn't high enough I'll bleed to death. So yeah that's fun. So besides that pregnancy is fine. Its just as easy if not easier than my last pregnancy, at least physically. I'm still fighting occasional depression. Still no word from Ej and I'm starting to think I won't be hearing from him till after the baby is born. Of course I'm still madly in love with him and I think about him everyday but it's becoming easier. Although some days are better than others. It's like he's dead honestly. The only thing I've got from him is Memories, my unborn child and pictures. Otherwise it's like he never existed. I'm sure this is what it's like to lose someone to death. But its almost worse because he's not dead he's out there and I have no way to see him or speak to him so it's torturous sometimes. I can't wait to have my baby so I can be very busy and not think about him at all. On the positive side a friend of Ejs family is supporting my pregnancy and is about excited as me about her. Which I'm very happy about. I worry about caring for two babies and being a single mom. All I can hope for is extra help with Alena. My financial situation isn't the best and I really do need a two bedroom apartment. Things will work out. Still the countdown to my pregnancy is exciting.
